Suzanne Armstrong Literacy/Technology Narrative 2/19/09 Final Draft
My digital walls are breaking down. No matter where I turn I see something digital. In the grocery store when I buy food and most of the cashiers got fired and there is one left and her/his line is extremely long. Thank goodness I brought one of my children with me to help check out on the new automated system. Going to the bank to get some money or make a transaction, but I have to be there before 3pm if I want to talk to a human instead of my ATM machine. And of course, on the phone of any business, which is nerve racking. Sometimes I just keep hitting zero over and over again, but now the company realizes this and say “sorry you have hit an incorrect number”. I guess the joke is on me now. It may sound as if I dislike the technology that we are in but I don’t sometimes I just want to talk to a human. Sometimes I just want to hear a voice, see a smiling face, and shake a hand. I don’t think that is too much to ask. I like no I love my cell phone. I love that I can go on the internet anytime and check my email. I like that I can go on my children’s school web page and pull up their grades daily without having to talk to a teacher, but if I want to talk to a teacher I can leave an email. I like that freedom and flexibility that the digital world brings. As a writer it is much more difficult. Surprisingly, this is my first writing assignment that I did not print first. I did, however, do my outline in print, but I am taking a huge jump by typing the body before writing it. I was not always this adventurous with my digital life, it has and is a challenge but I am willing to work at it, hence the Cyberspace class.
Suzanne Armstrong Literacy/Technology Narrative 2/19/09 Final Draft
This digital change is necessary now because of the classes I am taken and the overwhelming need to go DIGITAL. It is part of my world now and I must adapt.
I remember my first experience with writing for me was at age 12. Yes, I learned to write in elementary school, but I mean the freedom of writing for myself and it was a wonderful feeling. The ability to take a pen to paper, write down what ever you are feeling or what is on your mind is a freeing experience. Yes, typing is good, but writing to me seems more personal. To me writing is more intimae than typing. It was challenging time in my life when my writing became my lifesaver. Writing saved my life when my parents were going through a Divorce. My writing represented peace, comfort and constant during a time in my life where there was no peace, no comfort, and now consistency. Writing consoled me during my parents divorce by just being there. No matter what time of day as long as I had a pen and paper, I had a friend.
But even before my parents divorce I still don’t remember them reading to me or teaching me to write. That job fell to my aunt ( my mother’s baby sister) and she gladly accepted that role. I do remember my Aunt Jem playing school with my sister and me. She was a tough teacher and would not let us go to sleep until we read from a book she chooses. My parent left her in complete control with us and she was drunk with power. But she did teach us to read and do math. Aunt Jem was 12 or 13 years old at the time she was our teacher. I remember having all the Dr Seuss’s books.
Suzanne Armstrong Literacy/Technology Narrative 2/19/09 Final Draft
The one book I read and loved was Charlotte’s Web. I loved the spider and the different names she would create for Wilbur so the farmer would not kill him. “Amazing” and “Wonderful” are just a few of the names I remembered.
After my elementary school years, reading just became a job. I read for projects, tests, school but not for fun. My Aunt Jem’s school was during the summer because during the school year she had her own school work to do and my sister and I loved that. I called my aunt when I had to do this and we just laughed. She lives in Florida now and is an Executive at Chase Bank. She told me she was happy to be an aunt and wanted her nieces to know most of the work when we attended school. I know she did it out of love but back then it seems like torture. But on the phone I THANKED her for loving us so much as to teach us the basic foundation for my life of literacy (reading, writing, and math). In my aunt’s case teaching was not a “Thankless Job”.
Everything we did was non-digital. There was no digital when I was in school. There was only print. When I moved from Brooklyn to Piscataway, I wrote letters to my friends or family. Sometimes at night I would call, but calling was very expensive. You see there was local, regional, and long distance calling and the rates were high. So my father said “if you have to talk to anybody from Brooklyn just write”, and stamps were just 25cents. I remember our first month in Piscataway and we (my sisters and I) missed our friends so much that we ran up a 900.00 phone bill. My father yelled so much that he lost his voice. I can tell you that never happened again, and the mailman became our friend.
Suzanne Armstrong Literacy/Technology Narrative 2/19/09 Final Draft
When my friends got together we talked about boys. And who was cute, who was dating who, who was pregnant, and about fashion. I could only see my friends when my father went to his mother’s house in Brooklyn. That was once every 2 months. But sometimes my Dad said “you guys need to spend time with your family and tell your friends you will see them next visit”. When we were with my family it was a lot of old people talking about the olden days ( I guess now my kids would say the same when me and my family gets together). Both with my friends and family we just sat and talk and eat and just have a good time with one another. We enjoyed each others company, but if we were at my Aunt Pat house there is no tv in her living room. Juts this Christmas we/the family were complaining that she should put in a tv, but she says “you come to visit (talk to her) not watch tv.”
This non-digital experience made me a better communicator. I knew when to listen and when to talk. I would see gestures and learn social cues. I feel some of these qualities are list in the digital world.
My first digital experience was a job after high school and I was a receptionist. I am laughing just thinking about that job. I was maybe 19 years old, I am not sure, anyway I worked for Kelly Agency and they sent me to Dean Witter or Morgan Stanley, which is a Brokerage firm. This office was in Somerset, New Jersey. So they put me on the front desk and my job was to answer the phone with the thousands of buttons.
Suzanne Armstrong Literacy/Technology Narrative 2/19/09 Final Draft
Yes a thousand buttons, and I was suppose to say “GOOD MORNING DEAN WITTER, HOW MAY I HELP YOU”? But I would say “GOOD MORNING DEAN WITNER, HOW MAY I HELP YOU”? It got so bad that on one phone call the person calling had to tell me the correct pronunciation of the company I was answering the phone for. You could imagine, Dean Witter told me not to come back. That was so funny I just could not get that name out the right way. And I did not even get a chance to do any data entry. I was so busy with the phone calls I did not do any work on the computer. At Kelly Agency you had to train for the positions you wanted, and I was a good data entry person. So that was my first experience with the computer. It should have been at Dean Witter, but it was at Kelly Agency. I love telling that story because no one expects you to train for the phones.
My digital familiarity came from my jobs I held. Most people did not have a computer at home and at the job you were being trained on the computer. I remember working at AT&T and the monitor was so big and the screen small and green. There were only one or two people on the computer and it ran so slow. All you could do was enter information in this object that looked like a tv. Even with my digital introduction, I still kept my print life and digital life separate.
With my cell phone now how I interact with my friends and family is completely different. I just text with the ones younger than me and use the phone with the ones older than myself but when I text I forget and write or spell the whole word out.
Suzanne Armstrong Literacy/Technology Narrative 2/19/09 Final Draft
Texting is ok but I like talking on the phone. I mostly text with my children and my sisters, but with my Aunts, Grandmother, Father I use the phone. My younger sister is still trying to get me on my space. I told her just this weekend did you hear that they shut down 99,000 child predators on my space. And her comment was “you are not a child”. I said, “I know I am not a child, but I don’t like opening myself to the world”. She says she uses it for her business (Real Estate), but I am not comfortable with that yet.
I read on the computer for school. Sometimes if I am going out I print and read the material when I am out. Most of my digital experience is from school. My personal life just has the cell and some email. When winter break or spring bread or summer time comes around I don’t get on the computer at all. I only use it for school. My kids are trying to convince me to get a laptop, but that is big step for me.
I still like reading and writing in print. I like holding the book and not feeling confined to one set place ( but a laptop would fix that). I love putting pen to paper. I like seeing the page curl upwards after I write on the complete page. And sometimes when I write a lot my hand hurts. Like I said earlier this is my first paper that I am writing on the computer first and not print first. I did not my outline on paper. Its ok for example, I don’t have to erase or draw a line through a word, sentence, or paragraph. But my wrists hurt from typing so much.
Most of my experience is print. The little digital experience I had is from school. I had to buy an ebook for my history class and I think that was a ripe off. It was here at Kean and the book was only good for one semester and it was $120.
Suzanne Armstrong Literacy/Technology Narrative 2/19/09 Final Draft
That was highway robbery. If I were to by a text it would be good for as long as I have the book. But the bad thing about buying a school book is that you pay $100 for it at the beginning of semester and when you want to sell it back at the same book store it is not worth $25, and then you see it on the shelf the following semester, used for $60. It’s all a scam.
I am still learning the technology of the time. Now if I had to write a paper I would probably do my draft on the computer first, so that has changed. Work and school yes, that has changed, but socially no I am not ready yet.
Reflection
Looking over what I wrote about digital or print, and I see may pattern as willing to learn. There is an improvement in digital when it comes to space saving and a more effective writing pattern. But as for reading I like holding the book in my hand. As a writer I see and will use the computer as a positive tool, but as for reading I think I will stick with my books in hand.
My parents divorce is an experience that enhanced my relationship to writing. I think I will still keep my journal as paper but assignments I will use digital. I still see the reluctance to change when it comes to personal things. Like my journal and personal writings. I still have a protective nature when it comes to my deep writing or writing for myself.
Suzanne Armstrong Literacy/Technology Narrative 2/19/09 Final Draft
I love to write. It is so freeing to me. It allows me to say, be, or do what ever I feel with no consequences. May be one day I will let others read it but for not is by me and for me only.
My personal writings will be done on print for now and I don’t see myself changing but I will keep an open mind.
But I still see the lack of intimacy I have with the digital world. I use it because I have to and not because I want to. Hopefully, in the years to come that will change.